pinkyswear

2011-10-10T07:52:00.000-07:00

EOYS ARE OVER!
so many things to do!
1. read a book
2. read wattpad stories
3. watch vids
4. go shopping
5. watch a movie
6. duo corp stuff
etc etc etc.
AHH happiness but unsure of which to do first hahah
bye, off to enjoy life!~

2011-09-14T08:03:00.000-07:00

can't download another picture because you're here to stay <3

2011-09-14T07:59:00.000-07:00

for catalie:D

2011-09-06T09:05:00.000-07:00

broken spirit.
this calls for some alex goot!

2011-09-06T08:22:00.000-07:00

had ballet perf prac with george and qiyu today, plus s and two of her cello students. okay we shall have to practise more (?). argh super tired, too much work to do. gtg

2011-08-21T00:49:00.001-07:00

it's kinda scary to see how people change.

2011-08-16T07:44:00.001-07:00

been listening to panic at the disco recently.
brendon urie is super talented!
drums/bass.guitar/accordion/organ/cello/violin/trumpet.
crazy right! ._. *demoralised* :x

2011-08-08T21:59:00.000-07:00

happy 46th birthday singapore!
i've got the singapore spirit up in my head to stay~

2011-07-29T05:13:00.000-07:00

got back from china early this morning! super tired! but kinda happy.
homework awaiting me though! i'm dead.

2011-07-10T03:17:00.000-07:00

quick post!

church today:
義
god's changing our lives more than we realise.

2011-07-04T07:24:00.000-07:00

who are you, greed, to destroy our friendship?
i'm holding on, holding on.

exam prep ytd.
teacher: 'nope you have to play louder.not ff,but ffffffff!'

can life get any more complicated than this?

2011-07-04T07:21:00.000-07:00

how can anyone not love alex goot? haha.
okay time to sleep.

2011-07-04T07:12:00.000-07:00

things to calm me down

chocolate
songs
hillsong united-here in my life
walking back to him

2011-07-04T06:33:00.000-07:00

stressed maxxx..

keep calm and breathe

2011-07-02T08:10:00.001-07:00

violin exam is coming! ohmygoodness

2011-06-24T06:02:00.000-07:00

he has confidence in us, we have confidence in him. now all we need is confidence in ourselves.

it's our world when we play.

2011-06-24T02:52:00.000-07:00

one of the pieces we're playing in ensem
pantomime - philip lane
http://www.classicalarchives.com/work/278662.html
unfortunately it's only a preview.
better than nothing, though(:

will blog more when school reopens.

2011-06-17T11:07:00.000-07:00

it's two in the morning and i'm doing bio...
oh crap i think the questions are getting harder.
"'ama-sans' are japanese deep-sea female divers who are able to hold their breath for more than two minutes and dive to depths of 20 metres in search of sea products. They carry out a short hyperventilation move before each dive. Explain why."
oh crap i think if i'd taken last year's test, i'd have died.seriously, i don't know how to answer this question.argh.
back to studying.

2011-06-17T07:39:00.000-07:00

why do i think so much about things?let it be.let it be.

2011-05-23T07:16:00.000-07:00

i've fallen sick again))): darn i'm freaking tired.and my mum doesn't believe i wanted to go home early because i felt dizzy and had a headache; she thinks it's because i didn't do my homework and wanted to skip school or something like that.i'm being mistaken here):< yeah v tired luh, and must fin my hmk too): argh life sucks.

2011-05-20T07:30:00.000-07:00

omg i'm super tired! argh i wanna sleep soon.yep! unicorns FIGHT!haha.

2011-05-18T06:49:00.000-07:00

posting almost everyday these days(: improvement yes?nope i just have too much time to waste cause there AIN'T NO MORE EXAMS!yeahhh.so i'm kinda free but busy?planning camp,and gng for cip!omg excited about this saturday.but i hope we won't meet:x haha.um so today we had lessons.champs we had a breakdown of what the student council does, so we know exactly what our money is being used for.haha!i think the HONOURARY secretary is so funny:P yup chem prac today.did i mention why i like wednesdays?yep cause there's chem prac!i know, this is weird, but i find prac so fun! esp when you mix things tgt and get a coloured ppt or smth.haha us siblings liked to mix stuff whenever we went out to eat when we were young.like chili sauce with leftover soup:P haha.we don't eat with each other much nowadays, though.sigh i'm missing the time we spent tgt when we were young.like we'd fight with each other but make up over ice cream or smth:P argh.
okay what else?oh oracy, then a chinese debate in the audi.couldn't catch what they were debating about at the start tho:P haha i think huangqi is super funny when he debates!in a kinda cute way:P um yup after that stayed back to discuss camp stuff w xinmei.haha seriously i think i'm getting crazier day by day because of her.LOL:D
yup so my day was average?idk but i'm feeling happier these days.i feel more,at peace?yep no worries, just enjoying life, though i know this peace won't last for long:/ sigh.
listening to the script now!<3 must sleep soon, super tired..sleepyyy

when in doubt...

2011-05-17T06:01:00.000-07:00

work starts again tmr! gonna make the best out of my time now(:
slept the whole day!:x haha idk but super tired:/ i dread the thought of tmr.
doing maths assgn question now.hmm how does the synthetic division method work?i have no idea.sigh everyday's about work and more work...a never-ending VICIOUS cycle. can't bear to think of the uncertainties that lie ahead though... after school life.
so enjoy life now!
bye.

2011-05-16T08:30:00.000-07:00

got to watch the dissection of a pig's heart and kidney in bio prac today! super cool,although it was sad that we didn't get to do it individually.it would have been fun:D haha realised today that shiya's a sick girl!tch tch won't post what both of us talked about today:P hehe! hmm what else happened today?oh yeah.didn't get what i wanted for hcl and chem.hcl was a total disappointment.my compo really pulled my grade down!): sigh okay won't talk about it any longer.must have a happy life kay?just try my best yeah me?LOL i'm trying to encourage myself, and it's not exactly working:P had rv lit today too!i really need to redo my essay.i think it's shorter than 100 words-.- but not really in the mood to give two hoots about it.stayed back for a chinese talk, and then had a cca camp comm meeting(: were discussing night trail games and stuff.haha i think yechong and xiaojun's drawing/ghost story was suoer funny! haha should have taken a photo of it.they literally drew shocked faces and ghosts(the pacman type) in between sentences.super cute la both of them!:P yup after that went to walk w the other oics around and reached home super late.my eyelids are half-closed but i'm just typing this for the sake of it.LOL idk.oh yeah chatted with wk and rachel today!havent talked to both of them for a super long time.one is serving ns and the other is in another school.oh i miss her so much!must organise the class outing quickly and go out during the june holidays.yeah miss rachel,lisa,joyce and megan the most.sigh i still feel like i've let megs down because we were supposed to join mgse together.but i guess she loves dance too.wonder if she's still playing the cello:3 hmm and then that wk!haha.idk what to say nowadays,i feel so dead and cold and just rotting away.tch tch what am i doing.-.- mustn't forget my friends,even though they've left already)': must tell myself:YOU! don't forget to thank them for being your friends.cause after all they're kind enough to accept a person like me:') and thank god!yep.must settle down soon,being caught in between is not a good thing.must find somewhere that i'll be committed to,and not just worship there for a few years.yup!haha my goal for this year?:P kay shld i go to sleep now?or just waste my time reading tintin?hmm i like the second option too(: argh shall do neither.heh.

2011-05-14T08:17:00.000-07:00

guess what! 111 posts already! well this is the 112nd post.
yeah so i guess i'm like the only one who's still using blogger-.- nvm since i've already started, i'll just try to keep my blog alive as long as possible.which isn't succeeding much.i should be like shiya!i think she updates at least once a week(:

...
anyway,multitasking now.doing homework,msning,blogging,blah.should be concentrating on one thing right!can't help it though,not enough time!):
okie so shall just describe my day.
malay class in the morning.seriously my mum is getting mad because my malay still sucks.i can barely remember the words, except for walaupun and demam.-.-
after that went to qi's house with natalie and weili for lang arts video project!heh i'm so addicted to calling her qi.and playing pet shop something on natalie's ipod!LOL one of the many guilty pleasures in life:3
yeah so after that we had lunch and discussed.i think our vids are super funny!haha esp siwai's bimbo part:P she's so cute:D
then natalie and siwai had to leave for a show luo concert.nuff said.
yeah so my day was kind of boring?but i've learnt today that i needn't be so upset over problems.i should just enjoy life and cherish the friends around me,and not think so much about what people want, what people do, everything else.because what's the point of living if you're not having fun?well my original goal in life was to study hard and get a good job,and ignore everything else,but i've realised the most fun times are during teenage life.so i should be more social and more outgoing.because it's mostly about living life right?i don't want to become a block of wood without any friends or confidantes, i want to have stable relationships.so i've decided,don't be such a worrier, think about others and don't think about studies only, manage stuff! huh i sound like i'm having a mini epiphany right here.and i really must learn to appreciate the ones around me, and not take them for granted.yes i know this is cheesy, but i'm not gonna let myself drift away anymore!today, i had fun with wanqi,natalie,siwai,weili.yeah we were all crazy and stuff but we had fun!:D love you guys!
oh i think the bassists are so funny and cute!haha xinmei!^^
planning june camp,hope it'll turn out okay(:
yeah camp passione!:D
okie time to sleep.

2011-04-29T02:47:00.000-07:00

rvse's syf perf ytd!
firstly, must say ILY to everybody who walked through this journey tgt.because nothing would be possible w/o you:
jiaying, angela, kasia, rachel, valerie, yaning, qiyu, matilda, sry i've a mental block can't rmb the guy's name, yiming, george, elin, chingmay, sophia, takhei, renfei, yanjia, xinlei, koilin, xuteng, cheryl lim, yixuan, yihua, cheryl tee, tzuhsiang, jianjun, yuanting, dorothy, nicholine, jiahui, yilin, junhui, simin, wanxuan, simin, yichuan, minkuan, jeline, weina, yinlin, yijia, jolene, xinmei, hongyu, biying, joyce, jonathan
and last but not least, MR GOH.
thank you, mr goh, for supporting us throughout SYF prep and the perf. thank you for all the jokes and the encouragement you've given us and telling us no matter what result we get, it's the experience that counts. thank you for keeping our spirits up and for sending that encouraging msg after results were out (taken from nicholine's note):

"For me, this is a very good start, all of you have given your best, BUT I know 2013, can be/will be/must be/definitely be better, this silver will definitely make RVSE strive harder,we will come back in 2013!!!"

i seriously love you to the max.most awesome conductor ever!
thanks to the rest of ensem! we've worked hard. 你们辛苦了。we've practised and practised, and i believe that everyone had put in our hearts and souls into the perf, so i truly, truly have no regrets. i'm not ever going to think that we didn't play at our best. so well done okay! we've gotten silver, and after all the tears last night, i've thought through carefully and i'm just really glad that we've improved no matter what result we wanted, because we've made it! haha yeah like nicholine i rmbered telling someone in 2009 that if we've gotten bronze, we'd get silver next next and gold after that.and lastly, GWH. haha although i hope that this process will quicken, i think it just shows how we've moved up through the years.so we must really continue to put in our best kay? and don't let mr goh down--nope, not not to let him down, because we know that he'll always support us--but make him delirious with joy. haha can't imagine mr goh smiling cutely or waving his hands in the air excitedly or whatever.LOL:D but yes, it's to improve and show the WORLD and our school that we are not to be trifled with; we are mighty and we are strong! so don't give up! yup! so i've not regretted, nor will regret in the future, that our performance was not up to standard. i hope that everyone'll continue to 加油, and play our very best! so the next time we cry, it'll be of joy kay!:D

I LOVE YOU, RVSE!

2011-04-24T03:24:00.000-07:00

only four days left!
-HYPERVENTILATING-
ILY RVSE.

2011-04-20T06:36:00.001-07:00

8!
i'm getting excited~

2011-04-19T07:20:00.001-07:00

9 DAYS TO SYF.

FIGHT RVSE!:D

2011-04-15T07:01:00.000-07:00

OOH almost forgot to mention. LOVE SONG BIGBANG! love for T.O.P has been rekindled.<3haha i know,i'm not that crazy over him but i'm that crazy over him.ah let me enjoy my teenage life for a while,have a bit of fun,listen to music,do 'stuff'.meet more people and make more friends.yeh.

2011-04-15T06:45:00.000-07:00

13 days to go! syf here we come. must do our best kay? mustn't feel scared, must show nus and st margaret's we are not to be belittled. yup and i'm telling myself that i can't disappoint myself.what have i spent the past one year doing?if i screw it up,i'm never going to forgive myself.so must make sure there's no room for regrets.so many feelings running through myself now,but shan't mention syf anymore. year three life.. sickening! so much homework. and seating arrangement on monday!:X i wanna sit with wq for the rest of the year,because we're always talking about crazy stuff and singing songs.;-; and now we're like at opposite ends of the earth!;-; will miss her crazy even though we're still in the same class-.- haha my new tablemates are okay.oh except for that bunny w rabies.haha! don't know most of them tho.shall emo in one corner of the classroom;-; just wanna lead a happier life,don't wanna get caught up in rela problems anymore..stay focused! argh must plan for CID now...): busy busy busy!

2011-03-18T02:33:00.001-07:00

eyes swollen because of last night)':

2011-03-04T05:09:00.000-08:00

ohmygoodness i'm super proud of rv! produced a top scorer for a levels, who is really the dancing guy.omg i didn't expect that he would be the top scorer! he's very funny tho :P oh wow i'm so happy our school did well!first batch of year sixes!haha hopefully mr koh will be kind enough to give us a holiday on tuesday?(:
boohoo theory exam tmr.
must mug.
and today, i screwed up big time for maths.or at least i think i did.i feel like crying.i have to study super hard this year but my term one results aren't gonna be good,judging by my results so far.i'm super scared of doing badly and i want to get a scholarship :x
sigh fam's got no money for OELP.so most likely won't be going overseas this year:x
so really must do well!

2011-02-13T05:46:00.000-08:00

he's different from all the other guys i know
but why am i not suprised?

2011-01-29T05:22:00.001-08:00

thinking about someone halfway across the world now...
haven't seen him in a really long time.
i don't know, i kinda miss him now.
i wanna know how he's changed over...
8 or 9 years?
i'm a little afraid of cny this year.
:x

2011-01-19T04:32:00.000-08:00

this is my 100th post!
:D
haha just came here to say i love words(:
doing elit hmk now!
so fun i wanna become an english teacher when i grow up:D

2011-01-01T07:55:00.000-08:00

wow, the 2011 timetable for 3D is amazing.
*in shock*
great!so we have elit with hist, bio with phy and hist, bio with phy...
O:
hmm.i hope i survive this year.
what is RV literature anyway?
...
oh well.must get used to the life from now onwards.
no more freedom, no more fun.
-.-
hmm i have e same teacher for elit and lang arts.
i really don't know how i'm gonna get through!
i really hope i get mr loh as my pe teacher, not mr tan.please, please.
*worried about everything now>.<*
must get ready for school quick.

2010-12-29T06:25:00.000-08:00

yeh cca tmr:D
bestie's not able to make it though):
...
hmm i miss 2A.

2010-12-24T18:49:00.000-08:00

merry kissmas everybody!:D
have fun and god bless!:D

2010-12-21T22:00:00.000-08:00

so prayers really do come true.
thanks!
got the photos and the invite.
so, currently satisfied.
tomorrow's mum's birthday.
what shall we do?

i feel like i've wasted my holidays.slacked like crazy,did nothing but watched tv, went for cca, did homework.and i still have one piece left to do-.- so very unproductive.
must start mugging for next year, really worried.about studies and people lah.i don't know what i'll do next year.sigh.
okay i am a very antisocial person.i don't like to talk to people.
hmm reasons i don't like to talk to people:
1. i am too embarrassed to talk to you.
many people don't realise that i don't look people in the eye when i talk to them.it's because i'm afraid to see them look back at me.
2. i am full of teen angst.
well the second point explains it mostly.
so i sincerely apologise to the people who ask me whether i am feeling alright and i reply "i'm just tired" because that is not the truth.i don't know how to communicate with other people so i don't know what to tell you.
thank you very much.
and many apologies as well.
hmm i am pissed that someone thinks i did something in order to get back, but i didn't do it, although he has much reason to believe that i did it.
hmm how do you defend yourself against something?
i am at a loss. that is why lawyers are needed in the world.
hmm very funny thing i remember when i think about lawyers.
someone told me lawyers dun spk lyk dis.
i don't talk to her anymore, but i know she's studying law, and i'm very proud that she's my senior.
(:
yup. so that ends my relationship with lawyers.
hmm what else?
oh yup this guitarist named shaunyi ng performed in church last sunday.his guitar is really pretty with streaks across it.and he built it himself!
yup he plays the blues and his songs are not bad.
hmmthinking of shiya now.
yeh must listen to more classical songs.sick of all the lousy pop going around now,bleh.

2010-12-18T01:12:00.000-08:00

hmm i don't like people who are hypocrites.
and i don't like people who are backstabbers, thank you very much.
i feel pissed that i have to spend time with these type of people.
and not be able to say a single word.
to their faces.

you know christopher lee acts in the new drama serial breakout?he likes to think about what he would do to the person he's angry about.like punching them or driving them down.
but he can't do anything.
at first i thought it was stupid of the director to film like that, but now i want to do the same.
i try so hard not to get pissed in front of them, because...

who knows what they'll do to you?
besides, it's not worth getting your reputation smashed to pieces because someone is hurting you, and you're not supposed to care at all.
but what can i do?
one day i'll really post her name here, but that'll be the day when i no longer tolerate any more nonsense from her.
and that will be the day i get her
good
damn
hard.
seriously.
but i don't want to make my conscience stoop to such a low level as hers, when nothing really matters and it doesn't matter if you hurt someone else.
because i know i'm not supposed to do it, because it's my life, and i shouldn't be affected by her.
i want to cry and slap her with all my might, but i can't.
therefore, from this day onwards, i will not speak to her as a friend any more.
if she makes me pissed, i will not say a single word.
i will hold it until it bursts.
but until that day comes, i will hold strong.
never give in to her petty words, her tiny and insignificant deceptions.
because it's my life.

god, please give me the strength to deal with her. let me last for four more years with her, then advise me on what to do.
please please please, i need the strength to overcome her.
i don't want to become worse, or even like her.
i want to have a clear mind, i don't want to end up like her..hurting others..
so please,please,help me.
don't let me lose my goals,or forget what i stand for...
so long as i last, i will make sure my future is not affected by her.
thank you..
so please take away all my pain and sorrow, give me patience and don't let me forget you either.
it's tough, because i don't have a strong foundation to set myself upon, so please help me find one.i want to be firmly rooted in you...
let me study hard, never lose track in petty things. i want to have a good future so bad, and make the right friends. help me cherish people like xt, sy, and those who are true friends, because they are the people i love..
thanks.

i feel so much stronger to deal with you now.
(:

2010-12-16T23:55:00.001-08:00

crazed hypocrites.

i felt like smashing the stand on her head there and then.
pfft.

2010-12-07T07:03:00.000-08:00

ooh must not forget.
zann's birthday's in about half an hour's time!:D
loveee.
and happy birthday to the twins today.hope they'll be able to make good use of the time left>.<
LALALA bored.
i miss people.
shall go and reminsce about e past on my bed.

2010-12-07T06:52:00.000-08:00

hmm blog going to die soon.partly because i have teen angst.
and my lappie's broken):
))):
not by me.
ROAR

sigh hope the photo gets sent soon.i want it so bad>.<
miss them loads:X
lvn. without vowels^^

realised i can't trust just anybody these days.don't know what to do.
ahh lots of homework.struggled to complete an essay today, took me ages>.< got another to do tmr.
screw this.
yup but must hold on until school starts.really really dreading next year though...
it's gonna be so tough next year,or so i've heard.
sigh.
crappy paedophiles!LOL made everyone change their pictures because of sympathy,and then it turns out it's just some perverts trying to prey on kids! man.LOL like #11 said, cheated us of our feelings>.<
quickquick i want the photo now.sigh hope she won't forget...
i don't think i'll be seeing them anytime soon.
maybe even never.
):

KPOP BIASES:D

2010-11-17T03:39:00.000-08:00

BOLD - LIKE
BOLD& ITALICS - LOVE <3

01 Leeteuk (Super Junior)
02 Heechul (Super Junior)
03 Hankyung (Super Junior)
04 Yesung (Super Junior)
05 Kangin (Super Junior)
06 Shindong (Super Junior)
07 Sungmin (Super Junior)
08 Eunhyuk (Super Junior)
09 Siwon (Super Junior)
10 Donghae(Super Junior)
11 Ryeowook (Super Junior)
12 Kibum (Super Junior)
13 Kyuhyun (Super Junior)
14 Henry (Super Junior M)
15 Zhoumi (Super Junior M)

16 GD (Big Bang)
17 Top (Big Bang)
18 Daesung (Big Bang)
19 Taeyang (Big Bang)
20 Seungri (Big Bang)

21 Jaebeom/Jay Park
22 Nichkhun (2PM)
23 Taecyeon(2PM)
24 Wooyoung (2PM)
25 Junsu(2PM)
26 Junho (2PM)
27 Chansung (2PM)

28 Max Changmin (TVXQ)
29 Xiah Junsu (TVXQ)
30 Micky Yoochun (TVXQ)
31 Uknow Yunho(TVXQ)
32 Hero Jaejoong (TVXQ)

33 Joon (MBLAQ)
34 Seungho (MBLAQ)
35 G.O (MBLAQ)
36 Mir (MBLAQ)
37 Cheondoong/Thunder (MBLAQ)

38 Dongwoon (BEAST)
39 Yoseob (BEAST)
40 Junhyung (BEAST)
41 HyunSeung (BEAST)
42 KiKwang /AJ (BEAST)
43 Doojoon (BEAST)

44 Hongki (FTI)
45 Jonghun (FTI)
46 Minhwan (FTI)
47 Jaejin (FTI)
48 Seunghyun (FTI)

49 Lee Seunggi
50 Lee Minho
52 Kim Bum

53 Onew (SHINee)
54 Jonghyun (SHINee)
55 Key (SHINee)
56 Minho (SHINee)
57 Taemin (SHINee)

58 HyunJoong (SS501)
59 YoungSaeng (SS501)
60 JungMin (SS501)
61 KyuJong (SS501)
62 Hyungjoon (SS501)

63 Song JoongKi
64 Jang Geun Seuk

65 LeeU (F. Cuz)
66 Jinon (F.Cuz)
67 Yejun (F.Cuz)
68 Kan (F.cuz)
69 Wonbin (ex- FT Island)

70 ChangHyun (SHU-I)
71 MinHo (SHU-I)
72 Inseok (SHU-I)
73 HyunJoong (SHU-I)
74 Jinseok (SHU-I)

75 Ha MinWoo (ZE:A)
76 Hwang Kwanghee (ZE:A)
77 Jung HeeChul (ZE:A)
78 Moon JunYoung (ZE:A)
79 Park HyungShik (ZE:A)
80 Im SiWan (ZE:A)
81 Kim TaeHun (ZE:A)
82 Kim DongJun (ZE:A)
83 Kevin Kim (ZE:A)

84 Shin SooHyun (U-KISS)
85 Alexander (U-KISS)
86 Kim Kibum (U-KISS)
*eh hehe related to #58 ^^
87 Eli (U-KISS)
88 Lee KiSeop (U-KISS)
89 Kevin Woo (U-KISS)
90 Shin Dongho (U-KISS)

91 Jinwoon (2AM)
92 Changmin (2AM)
94 Seulong (2AM)
95 Jokwon (2AM)

96 CL (2NE1)
97 Minzy (2NE1)
98 Bom (2NE1)
99 Dara(2NE1)

100 Taeyeon (SNSD)
101 Sooyoung (SNSD)
102 Seohyun (SNSD)
103 Tiffany (SNSD)
104 Hyoyeon (SNSD)
105 Jessica (SNSD)
106 Sunny (SNSD)
107 Yuri (SNSD)
108 Yoona (SNSD)
hehe not sure lehh...although many people around me talk about snsd d:

109 Yonghwa (CN Blue)
110 Jungshin (CN Blue)
111 Jonghyun (CN Blue)
112 Minhyuk (CN Blue)

113 Kim Ah-Joong
114 Park Gahee (After School)
115 UEE (After School)
116 Bekah (After School)
117 Kim Jung-ah (After School)
118 Lee Jooyeon (After School)
119 Yoo Soyoung (ex-After School)
120 Raina (After School)
121 Nana (After School)
122 Lizzy (After School)

123 Park Gyuri (KARA)
124 Seungyeon (KARA)
125 Nicole (KARA)
126 Goo Hara (KARA)
127 Kang Jiyoung (KARA)

128 So Hee (Wondergirls)
129 Sun Ye (Wondergirls)
130 Sun Mi (ex - Wondergirls)
131 Ye Eun (Wondergirls)
132 YooBin (Wondergirls)

134 Eunjung (T-ara)
135 Hyomin (T-ara)
136 Ji-Yeon (T-ara)
137 Soyeon (T-ara)
138 Boram (T-ara)
139 Q-ri (T-ara)

140 Victoria (f(x))
141 Amber (f(x))
142 Luna (f(x))
143 Sulli (f(x))
144 Krystal (f(x))

145 Mika(D-NA)
146 Hyunmin(D-NA)
147 Karam (D-NA)
148 Injoon(D-NA)
149 Jay(D-NA)

150 Jihyun (4Minute)
151 Hyunah (4Minute)
151 Gayoon (4Minute)
152 Jiyoon (4Minute)
153 Sohyun (4Minute)

155 Woohyun (Infinite)
156 Myungsoo/L (Infinite)
157 Dongwoo (Infinite)
158 Sungyeol (Infinite)
159 Hoya (Infinite)
160 Sungjung (Infinite)
161 Sunggyu (Infinite)

162. Lee Hyori

163 JeA (Brown Eyed Girls)
164 Narsha (Brown Eyed Girls)
165 Miryo (Brown Eyed Girls)
166 Ga-In (Brown Eyed Girls)

167 Park Jungah (Jewelry)
168 Seo In Young (Jewelry)
169 Kim Eun Jung (Jewelry)
170 Ha Joo Yeon (Jewelry)

171. BoA

172 Young Sky (Oneway)
173 Chance (Oneway)
174 Peter (Oneway)

175 Lina (CSJH/The Grace)
176 Dana (CSHJ/The Grace)
177 Sunday (CSHJ/The Grace)
178 Stephanie (CSJH/The Grace)

179 Fei (Miss A)
180 Jia (Miss A)
181 Suzy (Miss A)
182 Min (Miss A)

hmm don't really listen to girl bands much except for maybe snsd? d:
haha so in the end T.O.P'S still my fave^^ love<3
aiyoh but he's so much taller than me-.- 180 eh...):
got ballet performance prac tmr again...sigh...must go practise..

2010-11-15T05:45:00.000-08:00

hmm feeling pretty low now.tired...

so it's been violin for the past few days?

ballet performance thing,ensem,private lesson,self prac...?LOL idk.fingers aching):

so got ensem today,seniors came..haha i think mr goh's really funny and cute.i want to laugh whenever he says something but i have to hold it in-.- i keep feeling like i might burst out into laughter whenever i play-.-
sigh so there's nothing much to do.practise,practise,practise,do homework-.- sigh not really looking forward to next year.and i don't know what class i'll be in.who knows who i'll end up with?i'm afraid there won't be anyone from 2A in the same class as me,because as far as i know,there's no one else in class who's doing the same combi.worried:/ sigh something happened today,and i feel sad about it.i didn't say anything but i really wonder what'll happen to me next year.i'm afraid..sigh..i don't want to be left out anymore,but i just can't fit in.i don't know how to socialise bah..

okay,what else?hehe watched asian games today.realised there's a guy who looks like top,but less shuai:P japanese though,a swimmer.heh.idk.i've a sudden urge to watch glee (?) and pokemon-.- hm random they changed the team rocket jingle thing):/ ohyeah i've been dreaming about random things.hmm like hugging rachel lee and having a vampire chasing after me on a bicycle-.- and about people dying,and i wake up with my pillow wet..people say dreams are the opposite of real life,so it won't happen..i think..

hehe shall end this with a picture?(:
:D 2backka i think.very old picture-.- fat cat!:D

2010-11-04T05:37:00.000-07:00

happy birthday T.O.P! LOVE

*sigh* so handsome^^ love him mad crazy:D

2010-11-02T19:19:00.001-07:00

TOP'S BIRTHDAY TMR!
happyhappyhappy~

2010-10-16T02:12:00.000-07:00

haven't posted in a long time.
LOL makes me think of shiya/jerelyn. they post practically every day?
not implying anything or whatever, anyhow.
this is late, but eoys are over...and cca resumed ytd..
so many things have happened, i just don't know what to say-.-
i shall give up on blogging soon.no effort to blog-.-
reasons why i have not blogged:
1. kpop.going to be overloaded by bigbang,suju,etc.not that it's a bad thing d:
oh reminds me of kbox session with 21 other people from 2a.which then leads me to think that we're going to split up soon)): which leads me further to nwk-.- LOL no idea why he suddenly popped into my head.guess it's because of y6s graduating ytd...not going to touch on this topic-.-
2. eoys duh.argh even though it's just four papers,i don't think i'm going to get good results.i've gotten back just the bio paper and i feel stupid already...hm if my bio is this bad i don't know what's going to happen to my chem.lucky that i didn't have to take phy for eoys tho.i would have died-.- not going to take phy next year either.bio and chem's safer...compared to phy!ugh.
3. haha cca! nvm that it just resumed ytd, i'm already feeling tired.ytd's practice was killing me.sore throat plus cough plus sleepiness plus mr goh staring fiercely at me.maybe it's just because i'm sitting directly in FRONT of him LOL or he just does that to everyone.he can be really funny at times tho((: oh yeah and a dog glaring from above doesn't help either-.-
4. facebook.LOL still childishly attached to restaurant city.must stop playing it!but can't help it,it's just too addictive.like mousehunt is to dv/xj. LOL.
5. laziness.too many things happening, too tired to blog.
nowadays i can't get myself to talk to other people-.-starting to feel like i'd rather be left alone...idk.i think it's plain laziness again.then i see no point in talking to people who would rather ignore me:/
people must get this straight.websites are not meant for flaming people.it's depressing tosee other people posting about some unlucky soul in the universe, who don't even know he/she's being flamed lah.people should not insult others online, even if you're feeling emotional. you really don't have to do that.ugh why the heck am i blogging about this? it's none of my business-.-think happy thoughts...must cope with all the crap in my life.
reading the woman in black and just finished nineteen eighty four this morning.it's a good book^^ sigh wish the school library could have nicer books.they just took all the old ones from last year's campus..really really old-.- sigh not enough money to buy books, so i'll just have to keep borrowing them or shamelessly begging other people to lend me(; *sorry shiya:X
sigh how to play tchaikovsky's waltz?hope i don't screw up on 27th nov...
shall end this post with my current favourite kpop artiste (hey i'm still faithful to top okay:P )

haha see the similarities between him and pikachu?LOL.cute!^^

2010-08-30T03:54:00.000-07:00

woosh~
sigh. have a few months left only, and that's the end.
will miss you, 2a..
sad that i won't rmb every single joke said, or every fun event we've had as a class.
haha shall rmb the samsung/algae joke.
argh life is screwed.
hmm ensem.
how to describe?
you don't know what i'm thinking, i don't know your thoughts either.
it's a, mutual affection between us?
lol.
so cold now, really cold.
sigh.so what's been happening?
your life, my life, all screwed.
sorry i can't go even though i really want to...
lesson learnt: how to judge if people are your true friends. see how long they take to tell you, and whether they want to tell you or rather complain to someone else.
i'm really quite disappointed in you...i don't even know if you were doing it on purpose or not.
i hate it when people tell me one thing and say another.
i thought you were a really good person in cca--someone i could confide in, but it turns out i might be wrong.
how to trust you now?
ugh.
never mind, something else in my life to cheer me up--ft!
she's always there and our friendship will never change(:
haha so cute.negative infinity A battery charger.
so who are you?

2010-08-06T08:31:00.000-07:00

everybody:
watch INCEPTION!
ahh i love this movie.went to watch it today at jp with sophia, shiya, xuanjim, sici, thaddea, terence, wenxuan, weili,j ianhao and wenyi after national day celebrations.hey for once i feel like attending ndp.strange.sigh cant get tickets anymore, in any case.
anyway,shall skip to the part about the movie.it's pretty good if you pay close attention to the movie to understand it.the graphics and special effects are great too.
okay i think mal is a really qian4bian3 person.she didn't believe that the real world was real and thought it was just another dreamland,so in order to get back to her kids she wanted to make cobb jump with her and blackmail him too.i guess it's not really her fault though;she was probably crazy with the dream world anyway.but she's quite scary in some parts,like the part where she stabbed the girl and started screaming at cobb while trying to get at him in the lift.before that she was calm,but then she went mad when she saw cobb): totally unexpected.
oh i like arthur(joseph gordon-levitt)! he was so funny when he was waiting for the rest with ariadne:
arthur: kiss me.
ariadne:they're still looking.
arthur:well it was worth a shot.
oh and robb in the bath tub scene was funny too.another slow scene was the van one,which was so slow even though the dreamworld time was fast.
the ending was interesting but annoying.i want to know if robb managed to get back into the real world or not,because although the back part showed him at the airport and everything,mal's top was still spinning when he got home..but i guess he managed to get back.it would be cool to have a sequel though,like what shiya said.it's a good movie, although quite long.
shall end this post with their riddle.
robb: you're waiting for a train,
a train that will take you far away.
you know where you hope this train will take you,
but you don't know for sure.but it doesn't matter.
how can it not matter to you where the train will take you?
mal: because we'll be together.
and they die.

for the people i've lost

2010-07-11T04:22:00.000-07:00

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

2010-07-04T07:49:00.000-07:00

syf opening ceremony ytd.the whole process was quite fun(: okay so we've been practicing our mass dance and finale item with cat high for ages,but i think it was worth it(:

so starting from friday--preview

lessons-.-

lunch.i swear they fed us like pigs during our waiting time and everything.have lunch,have snack,have more snacks,have dinner...hope i've burned all the calories off...i think so.mr loh made us run fifty laps..

costumes and props check--glitter and hair gel.plus the costume.dv said the performers from other schools screamed 'eee!' when they saw us.LOL.unglam!and the dog and the monkey 'happened' to walk past the hall at that time...so not chio,raymond-.-

boarded the bus.arrived at indoor stadium.

waited for a very long time..took photos,ate some more and applied lipstick.haha thaddea said i looked like a geisha because of my pale skin and the lipstick.is it a compliment or not?still trying to figure out...haha(:

performance!(:

after that waited for the bus.classmates were trying out dares on the poor cat high boys.they must have been traumatised,i think.LOL.like my classmates went up to them and said stuff like 'you're very shuai'.and then the cat high boys all gasped in horror/awe(: the guy tried to escape while another boy shouted out his phone number.super funny(:
also chin's brrrr coke ad was very funny too:D

departed indoor stadium very late.wu lao shi said we were the third class to leave though.bad traffic jam.

sat-actual performance!!!

arrived in school at two.got changed,applied makeup and then heard mr koh's speech.
he said he wanted to reward us for our hard efforts,so he asked us to think of something.

first request:no test for shuihuzhuan!

mr k's reply:no,it's a test.so at the very most it can be postponed,but it cannot be escaped):

second request:holiday!

mr k's reply:already got youth holiday mahh.so cannot have extra-.-

so everyone was alrd feeling -.-,then he said:

"okay,i give you yakult and ice cream.i think magnum."

-.-!!

well,better than nothing,i guess.quite funny actually(:

took the bus to indoor stadium...rushed to tape on lightsticks for headgear(which we were allowed to keep-.-) and took class photo,one with mr soh.lol someone said he took up a lot of space in the picture and got some kind of aura around himself.haha.

also krysen was running around like a fairy godmother and sprinkling extra green glitter on our hair.and qian xuan broke the lipstick.my class is so epic and funny(:

performance!i think it went beautifully,except the last part during the confusion about whether we were allowed to throw our lightsticks or not..

bus trip back to rv very funny! xuanjim initiated a lot of cheers for people like mr teo,wu lao shi and the bus driver.LOL.i wonder if the bus driver felt very happy or very pek cek.dv also got a cheer! banana too.haha!and then we sang the song we did for our year one orientation camp.quite out of tune but everyone sang it anyway.sigh i love my class most of the time.heh.

reached school and took many photos.cca photo!(:

shall end off this post with a 'helpful' tip:
when girls want to chase dv,they should jump around him while talking.example shown ytd in the foyer.hehe.very amusing to watch too(:

2010-06-06T07:11:00.001-07:00

Happy Birthday Kanda!(:
well done concert band.more importantly shiya,kellie,gracia,gladys,etc.
camp tmr.

2010-06-05T06:47:00.000-07:00

kanda's birthday tomorrow.happy.but sad too.i'm still looking for that word,and i haven't found it yet.why did i forget it?i think it's an important word now.oh well.will have to keep searching for it until i find it again.
worried about my brother.he's been having strange eating habits these days.as the years have passed by,we've grown further away from each other.so nowadays we hardly talk to each other any more.what should i do?i remember my nightmares about losing my family.it's really frightening me.if they were to disappear one day,i won't know what to do without them.i'll probably die.
camp's approaching too.
must stay cheerful.

2010-06-04T05:14:00.000-07:00

two more days to kanda's birthday!ahh!sixth of june(: which is concidentally the same day of cb's concert.haha.can't wait to hear them play.
quite happy today.SL's message cheered me up.we're improving!(: yeahh.so we shouldn't be called second violins but the other violin group soon,i hope.and then i'm starting to get to know people in ensem,who are really nice and friendly.such as my...juniors?haha.had lunch with xuteng,valerie and qi yu at pizza hut today.since when have i been this happy?wagon with eight stones today.
camp coming in three days!should i be excited or worried?i don't know if i can help weiting lead our group properly.but i think camp's gonna be fun,especially the security guard part.haha(:and then what about night trail?so i will have to lead the group alone.ahh.i think that if a ghost appears in front of my group i'll be the first to run.haha.hope that won't happen.and don't worry xuteng,you have qi yu and valerie to hug(:
i need good book recommendations!my life is so dead..and i can't believe that even tho my gpa's okay,LA wasn't the best subject..it was MATHS.i am absolutely appalled.is my english standard dropping.and nowadays i can't even speak clearly...like make up proper sentences.that's a really serious problem.ugh.i stumbled over my words when i was talking to someone the other day.does that mean my communication skills are going haywire?ugh ugh ugh.maybe i'm being paranoid,but i expect english to be my best subject.i'm not really a math and science person,so if i have to choose subject combi,i probably won't choose two sciences and one elective..which brings me back to wondering why i am in this school..but it's okay.at least it makes me buck up on my math and science...i don't know what to do tho.ugh.
42 days left.i think.ugh.now my math is failing too.ugh!
just updated links.i realise now that the reason that i bother to update it is because i want to keep myself alive.the things and the people i once knew are slipping away fast.i'm scared i'll forget them.those that i used to hold so dearly,have eroded from my mind--just dull memories of them now.soon,they'll be gone forever.isn't that scary?it's the worst.

2010-06-03T03:05:00.000-07:00

went for piano accompaniment lesson today.smth that the teacher said really made me think about ensem.
i mean, i love ensem and all...playing with everyone else really motivates me to continue learning to play the violin,but there's something missing.it seems that we're too afraid to let our emotions flow out.maybe we're too fixed on playing the right notes and everything,and we forget to enjoy the music we play.yes,this might sound cliched,but when we have ensem,it sounds like we're not bold enough to reach our fullest potential sometimes.perhaps it's like what many people have said--singaporeans,too afraid to lose?i mean,we're just not letting everything out!i think we need to be more confident of ourselves.presentation's really important in practicals.likewise,we need to show to people what we really are.when we went for syf last year,i watched the other schools perform.the way we express ourselves,it makes people think we cannot play well,although we can.what i want for ensem is to be bolder.we need to show others what we can do.we can't continue being stiff;we need to just let go of everything else.this post might sound ridiculous to some,but isn't it important to be unafraid to expose ourselves?i don't want our concert to be just a concert.i want it to prove to our school that we're not a weak cca.ensem must become a well-respected cca in this school,no matter what.i want to make sure that by the time i finish school here,ensem will be a cca that people will recognise and want to join the school for it.
man,what an embarrassing post...i seem to have said too much.but it's what i feel,and i'm gonna leave it alone:?

2010-03-28T01:23:00.000-07:00

hello blog! here to revive you a little. erhm so lots of things have been happening, so i will just briefly describe the hectic month of march. had tests last term and did pretty well, because this year i wanna put more attention into my studies and beat my partner ft:) haha don't get mad, but i'm using you as a 'marker', so i wil continue to strive for your awesome grades for math and science.haha!:) mm then during the march hols, went for a music theory test...most of the kids there were all so young!i'm feeling sad for being such a late bloomer, but better late then never. results are gonna be out in a month's time, so i shall wait and pray that i will get a high score. i mean, i should get a high score, because i'm too...old...(?) already and i need to catch up on my violin skills.mm and i've already registered for a practical exam this year,and my mum wants me to register for grade five theory test at the end of this year, so i hope i can learn everything as fast as possible, because i want to play better in ensem. although i'm already in the ensem, which is good, i think my section needs to work very hard...i miss my ex-mg ensem friends! at least i have valerie in my cca(: finally there's someone else from mg. zann and i were getting lonely:P
okay then the rest of the march hols was tiring, because there was dance prac, cca and the passport thing, so i fell ill and didn't go to school on monday-.-
uhm zann also did well for nationals! she got second for cross country, i think. her name appeared in the sports section once(: well done zann! and to thaddea and sici too. i admire you guys for your determination. training must be so tiring:x
mm birthday wishes! Happy Belated Birthday to nicole(25th mar) and jessie(27th mar)(: jiayou for school! haha.
also, good friday's coming up. i wonder what my schedule will be on that day:x speaking of schedule, who wants to go for the rjc concert that hsiaotien was talking about?xuteng and i may be going, but that's still too lonely;) so it's on 23rd april. i need to reply her by tmr....sigh...so anyone else?(:

2010-02-03T04:55:00.000-08:00

yeah!finally got some time and energy to blog.being pretty busy these few days.had home econs today(: made chicken burgers and hot Ovaltine today(: so here's the recipe (makes two):

Ingredients:

1) Minced chicken meat

2) Half a beaten egg

3) Half an onion

4) A bit of cucumber and tomato
5) Salt, pepper, soy sauce

6) Bread

7) Bread buns

Method:

1) Dice onion and turn bread into breadcrumbs.

2) Mix diced onion, breadcrumbs, beaten egg mixture, salt, pepper, soy sauce and other seasonings with minced meat. Stir in a bowl and divide into two patties.

3) Heat some oil, and fry meat patties until golden brown.
4) Slice cucumber and tomato into thin slices and place inside the bread buns with the meat patties.

5) Serve with hot Ovaltine(:
took some pictures of the food(:

haha pretty burgers(:

and here's one of sophia! i hope she doesn't mind. d:

ugh i need to do smth with my blog's html. it's a mess): i need to find nicer blogskins too:/

hmm.

2010-01-20T05:04:00.000-08:00

assembly was kinda tiring today.

home econs(: made choc chip cookies and hot ceylon tea.

i thinkk it was 150g of flour, 100g of margarine/butter, something grams of sugar and chocolate rice, and then milk.eveything mixed together first with some stabbing method...forgot the name...and then rolled into cookie dough(: successfully pressed everything into a doughy shape,cause of experiences with mom...=.=....and then shaped the dough into little cookie pieces and placed them on a tray coated with oil.haha sophia's mickey mouse shape was so pretty(: and some more hearts,diamonds,one cupcake and one pineapple shape(: put them in the oven,preset at 180 degrees(i think) and then wait for about 20 mins until bottoms of cookies turn golden brown.lol mrs chew used people's skin as examples(;
made tea while waiting for the cookies.milk,sugar,mrs chew's best ceylon tea from little india(; and boiled water.pour water into teapot with tea powder,wait 2 seconds,strain and serve.add milk and sugar.
yep that's about it.i think the cookies weren't exactly done when mrs chew took them out,but still eatable(: and quite delicious too(: thaddea helped both of us to take a photo of our cookies,but i haven't recieved it from sophia or thaddea): then did homework on the importance of breakfast.most boring part=.= but home econs still rocks!learning queen cakes next week(:
yep had chinese,recess,science.
science was intersting because we did a popcorn experiment(: made the corn kernels pop inside the beakers with different types of oil to see which one would produce the best results.quite smelly though,cause of all the smoke,etc.
champs time,we had SEL time.wulaoshi painstakingly cut up pieces of paper for us to paste onto the papers so we would find it more interesting or something,so i really admire for taking time to do this(she said half an hour,i think) and also for what she said to us during the lesson,because she reall wants us to buck up and stop behaving so rowdily in class,and everything.so i'll try my best to not make her upset and complete my cleaning duties for this week thoroughly(: but there's the chengyu of guzhangnanmin,so the cooperation of everyone in the class is needed.jys everyone for your studies this year and not make wulaoshi even more stressed up.
malay,cid and pe tmr!busy day.
T.O.P!!!haha.(:

2010-01-19T06:18:00.000-08:00

finished watching big bang videos.t.o.p's beatboxing skills are really good!(:and the part where they learn english and g dragon purposel skips t.o.p's name is funny(:daesung's jap is pretty good too(: commenting on their cardboard pictures.LOL

2010-01-19T04:33:00.000-08:00

had cca today.
lessons in the day(:
dv lent me his big bang cd!g-dragon looks weird in the picture,but t.o.p looks okay(:
history was the first lesson(:
mr ernest chia is super nice and funny(:
he's really good at making people laugh.
obama lookalike visited our class today too.
after that had lang arts,science prac.
did some oscillation test for a pendulum ball.
recess,then math?
chinese.leant about zhugeliang,etc.sanguyanyi people.dv and i commented on the hotness of some of their pictures=.= because some were taken from mpgs,so quite shuai,for people living in that era.
had geog,but miss tan called in sick or something today,so there was a relief teacher,who told us to complete a worksheet that we hadn't learned how to do yet,som fang ting and i kinda guesstimated some of our answers:/
lunch and then cca.
had a lesson with miss cindy,and we finally told her what we wanted to do,etc.practiced vibrato technique;hopefully mine will get better.wrist still a bit stiff,and needs to be more flexible.
watched year 1 cca trials after that,played with kasia's iphone.it's so nice to play with(: i like the cute gingerbread man game.LOL.
went home with xuteng,rachel,mathilda and yaning.
i still feel a little sad,and unsure of what to do.hmm.

2010-01-15T02:36:00.000-08:00

yay! had learning symposium today(:
so went to my classroom,got the ugly dark green math file, then met with shiya,michelle and ke ying to improve on the project, and then chatted with se and co people(: met mr chow at the back of the hall to discuss it.there's a female teacher whose so mean and didn't allow us to stand at the back): in the end, we got our way(: and we watched the concert from the back.i'm too short): i couldn't see much): at least the songs were nice(: se pretty soft though:/ yep after that started preparing some more,and ate chocolate in the seminar room(: rehearsed..yadda yadda yadda.had a tiny lunch, bought the prizes and then got back in time to be the first to present!:0 the presentation was pretty okay,except the quiz part where it was a bit confusing:P yup and i realised mr watson was in the seminar room in the middle of the presentation:? listened to a bit of the other la presentations while mr chow and our group played with his blue-tack(: haha mr chow was so cute,playing with the blue-tack(: (he has a cute pink mr greedy water bottle too:)and i found out that mr chow was from hci!woah.then went around bribing teachers and seniors to vote for our group(: haha(: after that took mrt with michelle and learnt that she's from rgs:0 cool.and her mum wants her sis to go to acjc. i think bro is going to go to ac,perhaps sa.he's still considering.i want him to go to ac.
yay and finally everyone is starting to listen to big bang.i think chin,darth vader,sophia and i were discussing bigbang,and chin agreed that t.o.p is very cute(: his voice is pretty nice when he raps(: but the hair award still goes to gdragon,for his blond hair.haha(:
tired now:/ and i need an energy booster or something.hmm.
and there's math and hcl homework.not forgetting hcl cid.i have two hours of hcl on thurs,because cid is right after my hcl lesson.gahh.i think i'm gonna die from too much chinese): i wanna do la again):

don't be sad,okay? :/

2010-01-04T05:28:00.000-08:00

today was the first day of school!great to see my classmates again,although it was a bit tiring during the orientation): oh,the sweltering heat!rv is so hot,it's like a volcano of lava d: yep can't they install more fans or plant more trees?it was really hot, so much so that i couldn't think straight and walked around in a daze:/ yep. other than the heat,there was that annoying piece of plastic around the track that people kept tripping on.besides that,the canteen food wasn't too bad, and cheaper too(:
got hist,geo and four mains tmr,so better get to sleep earlier d:
byebye(:

2009-12-31T06:48:00.000-08:00

dear all,
happy new year's eve!a few more hours to the start of a brand new year.
sigh.
wonder if it's gonna be better or worse.
so,looking back
this year has been really eventful.
when i first entered rv,it was totally frightening and lonely,because i felt like i didn't fit in at all.
i still do,a little,at times.
it's better.at least i've made some new friends(:
ups and downs the whole year through
yup.
lots of tears
and laughter.
i managed to make it through this year(:
hopefully,next year will be better.
aiming for greater heights.
trying to get into ensemble
buck up on my studies
improve my social status:/
eveyone,jyjy for 2010!(:

2009-11-27T20:16:00.000-08:00

yep.the first thing i did when i switched on my laptop was to sign in to msn,and i have a feeling that someone is avoiding me....hmmm....and probably avoiding everyone else too....but of course i don't have any proof,but i hate it when people avoid me...so...yep...i'm not even angry with that someone....so.......:/....but i don't know if that person is angry with me either....gahh....
anyway,darth vader recommended me another song(: by bigbang(: T.O.P's haistyle so cute!(: heh.
"Let me hear your voice"- Big Bang
Sakki made no ame wa mou agatte
Asufaluto tadayou machi no nioi
Nee socchi mo mou hareteru yo ne
Nishi kara kaifuku surutte
Asa wa negate na kimi dakara nee
Mainichi chanto okirareteru kai?
Sonna koto imada ni shinpai shiteru yo
Hirogaru sora wa sou jiyuu de
Nani mo kawattenai keredo
Tonari ni ima wa tada… tada kimi ga inai dake
Koe wo kikasete
Sunao ni nareba kitto
Wakari aeru hazu sa
Kokoro wo hiraite
Koe wo kikasete
Aruitekita michi wa bokutachi ni totte kitto
Taisetsu na STEP sa sono mirai e no
Kimi to hajimete deatta no wa sou
Choudo ima kurai no kisetsu datta ne
Raito appu shita machinami ga
Kirei ni kagayaiteita
Nakimushi na kimi wa are kara yoku
Boku no kata ni odeko wo nokkete
Naiteta ne sono nukumori ni
Mushou ni furetaku naru
Hito wa dare demo sorezore ni nayami wo kakaete ikiru
Koware souna kokoro wo hisshi ni
Yasashiku nareba motto
Aishiaeru hazu sa
Me wo sora sanai de
Koe wo kikasete
Karami tsuku fuan mo sabishisa mo koete yukou
Ima no kono kimochi ga kizuna ni naru
Yeah, Since you went away hasn’t been the same
In my heart all i got is pain
Could it be that i play the game
To lose you, i can’t maintain
Sunlight moonlight you lit my life
Realize in the night while love shines bright
Can’t let you go we were meant for forever baby let me know
Days passed without you can’t forget you
Letting me be the cloud hanging above me
Raining on me missing your touch
Nights get longer and it’s hard to clutch
We’re apart breaks my heart
Its all for the best girl, you’re my world
In time my love unfurls
‘Till then wait for you girl
Koe wo kikasete
Sunao ni nareba kitto
Wakari aeru hazu sa
Kokoro wo hiraite
Koe wo kikasete
Aruitekita michi wa bokutachi ni totte kitto
Taisetsu na STEP sa sono mirai e no
[Sadly T.O.P sings for only one small english part:/ ]

2009-11-25T23:57:00.001-08:00

The Nameless Monster -Adapted from the anime/manga [Monster]
Once upon a time, there lived a nameless monster.
The monster was dying to have a name so badly.
So the monster decided to set out on a journey to find itself a name.
But the world was such a large place.
So the monster split into two and went on two separate journeys.
One went to the East and the other went to the West.
The monster that went to the east found a village.
There was a blacksmith at the village entrance.
"Mr.Blacksmith, please give me your name" said the monster.
"I can't give you my name" replied the blacksmith.
"If you give me your name I will jump inside you and make you stronger in return." said the monster.
"Really? I'll give you my name if you can make me stronger.", the blacksmith told the monster.
The monster jumped inside the blacksmith.
The monster became Otto the blacksmith.
Otto the blacksmith was the strongest man in the village.
But one day he said:"Look at me! Look at me!"
"The monster inside of me has grown this big!"
*Chomp, chomp, munch, munch, gobble, gobble, gulp*
The hungry monster ate Otto from the inside out.
The monster then went back to become a monster without a name.
Even though he jumped inside Hans the shoemaker....
*Chomp, chomp, munch, munch, gobble, gobble, gulp*
He went back to being a monster without a name again.
Even though he jumped inside Thomas the hunter.....
*Chomp, chomp, munch, munch, gobble, gobble, gulp*
He still went back to being a monster without a name.
The monster then went to a castle to find a wonderful name.
Inside the castle, there was a very sick boy.
"I'll make you stronger if you give me your name" said the monster.
In reply, the boy told him "I'll give you my name if you can cure my illness and make me stronger."
So the monster jumped inside the boy.
The boy became very healthy.
The King was delighted.
"The prince is well! The prince is well!" said the King.
The monster became fond of the boy's name.
He also grew fond of his life inside the castle.
That's why he endured even when he became hungry.
Every day, even when his stomach became very empty, he endured.
But then he became so hungry....
"Look at me! Look at me!" said the boy.
"The monster inside of me has grown this big!"
The boy then ate his father, servants, and everyone.
*Chomp, chomp, munch, munch, gobble, gobble, gulp*
Because everyone was gone....
The boy left on a journey.
He walked and walked for days.....
One day the boy met the monster that went west.
"I have a name," said the boy.
"It's a wonderful name."
And then the monster that went west said..."I don't need a name"
"I'm happy even if I don't have a name."
"Because we're monsters without names."
The boy ate the monster that went west.
Even though he now had a name....
There was no one left to call him by his name.
Johan.
It is a wonderful name.

i like this story a lot,because there's a lot of meaning in it.even though the monster got a name in the end,there was no one to call him by his name,because he ate them all up.it's a little sadistic and interesting..mm...
and the ending song rocks(: this anime is really good.
"For the love of life"-David Sylvian
And slowly, you come to realize
It's all as it should be
You can only do so much
If you're game enough
You could place your trust in me
For the love of life
There's a trade off
We could lose it all
But we'll go down fighting
And what of the children?
Surely they can't be blamed for our mistakes?
And slowly I've come to realize
It's all as it should be
That hiding space
A lonely place
How can the right thing be so wrong?
I've found mistakes
Where they don't belong
For the love of life
We'll defeat this
They may tear us down
But we'll go down fighting
Won't we?

2009-11-15T00:36:00.000-08:00

yawn.boring sunday.just doing math papers,etc,etc...haiz.okay.rewind.
hmm it's been such a long time since i blogged:/
went for cca last monday,and friday.friday was fun.got to play as a group(: i think i need to touch up a lot on mantras,it's pretty fast:?yep.
i think i went ion orchard with mom sometime ago:? went to charles and keith for a very long time:/ and then went to uniqlo[haha the sales assistant very sweet] mm yep etc etc
weekend okay,had violin lesson,and bro went to watch movies with his friends[cronies:] and brought back popcorn:)
etc,etc...
i think my [social] life is really screwed:? *sigh*
feeling really confused...about...stuff...
and i miss them.lots.lots.lots.
*sigh*

2009-11-04T04:55:00.000-08:00

okay.
very tired:/
anyway,updates(:
so spent time with my classmates at aranda on sunday and monday.went to tampines ikea,had lunch(: the meatball sauce rocks(: then reached aranda about half an hour earlier=.= yep skip all the boring parts and we went to escape theme park.the first ride was like sleeping.heh.then we went pirate ship:O stomach was feeling so queasy.gahh.then skip skip went to haunted house,ferris wheel,etc.heh sophia and i discussed our secret rankings(: then went back to chalet and ate dinner at mac's(: haha mac's has a very attractive promo--the monopoly thing has everyone scurrying to trade game cards(: then sorta went to sleep:/ about three hours only,but sophia and i had a very nice talk with chin,terence and shi cheng(: quite interesting(: woke up because the boys were watching the unforgettable memory=.= then had breakfast at mac's,etc etc,went to pasir ris park in the morning to cycle,but the rental shop wasn't open yet,so we played at the playground(: haha shi cheng and chin were very funny on the seasaw(: then it was getting so hot that fangting and i went back to the chalet and in the comfort of the air conditioning played on nintendos(: then went to e!hub for lunch at pastamania.the baked rice tasted quite delicious(: then we went to the arcade(: took my first neoprint photos:O amazing,isn't it?:O then went to cycle with krysen,fangting and sici.at first fangting and i rented a 'couple' bicycle,but then we couldn't get balanced:( so we decided to share a single bicycle(: and i taught fangting how to cycle!woots!:) yupyup so we had lots of fun(: then went back to the chalet after a while and the class ordered pizza for everyone and the teachers who were supposed to turn out,but then in the end only two turned up=.= mr teo and miss pan(: performed a bit of nobody with some of my classmates:O and then wenyi sorta betrayed the class:? and the davidists were hopping mad...and everyone was kinda upset for a moment,but then everything was sorta resolved...i think...but then everyone was feeling kinda creeped out...and i was feeling really freaked out...hmm...yeah...then went back home around ten and immediately fell asleep...yep i was that tired...then the next day had cca,played pretty well during lesson time(: then took the train back with xuteng,rachel and raymond.mm pretty normal day...today had extra violin lessons at home,there's more on saturday...haiz...the exam pieces are hard....:/ there's cca on friday again...i suddenly realise how boring my lifestyle is..it's rare for me to go out and chill...i'm feeling like i'm gonna become a hermit=.= oh well,can't relax yet,there's still another year that's gonna be even tougher than this year...and the next even more so...it's really a never-ending cycle of stress and boredom...sigh...
at least i managed to get this song!(:

Big Bang & 2NE1-"Lollipop"
Lolli lolli Oh Lollipop
Lolli lolli oh lolli lolli
Nah, that’s not how we do it
Lolli lolli lollipop
Oh neon naui lollipop
Lolli lolli lollipop oh lolli pop pop
Lolli lolli lollipop
Boy neon naui lollipop
Lolli lolli lollipop oh lolli pop pop
Makdae satang boda deo dalgomhan nae
Maeumeun teojildeuthan dynamite
Nan ggalggeumhan namja T.O.P
Nae sarang Bling Bling like L E D
Geudae ddak nae seutarya
Panjjak panjjak seutayasaekdareungeol wonhae?
Let me show you if that’s okay
Now come onsaekggareun rainbownal neuggin sungan neon bbajyeo beoringeol ara
You just can’t control
nal saro jabeun geolneowa namani aneun uri duri secret light
Lolli lolli lollipop dalgomhage dagawa
Lolli lolli lollipop naege soksakyeojwo
Lolli lolli lollipop sanggeumhage dagawa
Lolli lolli lollipop jigeum wonhajanha
Lolli lolli lollipop
Girl neon naui lollipop
Lolli lolli lollipop oh lolli pop pop
nal seollege haneun neoui body neoui moveimi ne shiseoneul gadwobeorin naui grooveshiksanghamdeuleun maeil nal jichigehae
Let’s just keep you and I F.R.E.S.H
Let’s go nowsaekggareun rainbownal neuggin sungan neon bbajyeo beoringeol ara
You just can’t control
nal saro jabeun geolneowa namani aneun uri duri secret light
Lolli lolli lollipop dalgomhage dagawa
Lolli lolli lollipop naege soksakyeojwoLolli lolli lollipop sanggeumhage dagawa
Lolli lolli lollipop jigeum wonhajanha
Lolli lolli lollipop
Boy neon naui lollipop
Lolli lolli lollipop oh lolli pop pop
han sunganui neuggimi anya jigeum du nuneul gamadok neon nae apeseo itneungeolnaega baradeon geuge neoya geunyang idaero neowa na jeo bulbidarae
Lolli lolli lollipop dalgomhage dagawa
Lolli lolli lollipop naege soksakyeojwo
Lolli lolli lollipop sanggeumhage dagawa
Lolli lolli lollipop jigeum wonhajanha
Lolli lolli lollipop
Oh neon naui lollipoplolli lolli lollipop oh lolli pop pop
Lolli lolli lollipop
Oh neon naui lollipoplolli lolli lollipop oh lolli pop pop

2009-10-31T02:45:00.001-07:00

yeah.class chalet tomorrow mann!(: i have no idea what to bring tho.gahh.but looking forward to spending time with my classmates tho(:
hey,and i'm sorry for getting mad at that person a few days ago,'cause i was really stressed up with everything then,so i should have tried to understand him better,so i'm really really sorry for causing him any hurt.uhm.yep.and i hope you see this and we can remain friends,and hope you get over this milestone in life.uhm.haven't seen you around,so i haven't got the time to apologize.yep and you should know that everyone cares about you,kay?(:

2009-10-25T22:17:00.000-07:00

YAY! Officially thirteen now(: this rocks(: hahaha.

okay.so thanks to the people who have wished me happy birthday so far:

Rachel:my dear partner-in-crime+ninja:D thanks for staying up so late to be the first to wish me happy birthday.heh.

Lisa:second one(: bffs forever!(:

Dan:yeah,i sure hope that i will too(:

Anna:heh.thanks for remembering me..lmao(:

Sophia:for your simple and nice message(:

Jillian:ohemgee you still remember me(((:

hahaha so thanks everyone(: yep.

haven't posted for a long time tho.a lot of tension at home.brother got o levels...makes everyone super stressed up): my mum going bonkers alrd.please buck up bro... :s

and that someone...don't emo alrd!(: and everyone is really concerned about you kay.so don't wallow in despair.jyjy(:

sigh.should i take theory exam next year,or take with practical?hmm.

BIGBANG!

boomz.heh.

Big Bang-'Lies'

Yuh-ba-sae-yo

(Yeah) love is pain

Dedicated to all my broken-hearted people

One's old a flame... just scream my name

And I'm so sick of love songs (yeah)

I hate them damn love songs... moment of ours

(Geo-jis-mar)

Neuj-eun bam bi-ga nae-ryeo-wa neor de-ryeo-wa

Jeoj-eun gi-eog kkeut-e dwi-cheog-yeo na

Neo eobs-i jar sar su iss-da-go

Da-jim hae-bwa-do eo-jjeor su eobs-da-go

Mos-ha-neun sur-do ma-si-go

Sog-ta-neun mam bam-sae chae-wo-bwa-dosirh-eo neo eobs-neun ha-ru-neun gir-eo bir-eo

Je-bar ij-ge hae-dar-ra-go

(-geo-jis-mar-i-ya)

Neo eobs-neun nae-gen us-eum-i bo-i-ji anh-a

Nun-mur-jo-cha go-i-ji anh-a

Deo-neun sar-go sip-ji anh-a

Yeah

Yeos-gat-ae

Yeor-bad-ge

Ni saeng-gag-e

Dor-a-beo-rir-geos gat-ae

Bo-go sip-eun-de

Bor su-ga eobs-de

Mo-du kkeut-nass-de

I'll be right here

I'm so sorry but I love you da geo-jis-mar

I-ya mor-rass-eo i-je-ya ar-ass-eo ne-ga pir-yo-hae

I'm so sorry but I love you nar-ka-ro-un mar

Hwas-gim-e na-do mo-reu-ge neor tteo-na-bo-naess-ji-man

I'm so sorry but I love you da geo-jis-mar

I'm so sorry but I love you

(I love you more and more)

I'm so sorry but I love you na-reur tteo-na

Cheon-cheon-hi ij-eo-jur-rae

Nae-ga a-pa-har su iss-ge

Geu-daer wi-hae-seo bur-reo-wass-deon nae mo-deun geor da ba-chin no-rae

(A-ma sa-ram-deur-eun mo-reu-gess-jyo)

Nan hon-ja,, geu a-mu-do a-mu-do mor-rae

(Geu-rae nae-ga haess-deon mar-eun geo-jis-mar)

Hor-ro nam-gyeo-jin oe-tor-i

Geu sog-e he-me-neun nae kkor-i

Ju-meo-ni sog-e kko-gis-kko-gis

Jeob-eo-dun i-byeor-eur hyang-han jjog-ji

(hey)

(Neon eo-dis-na-yo neor bu-reu-neun seub-gwan-do)

Nan dar-ra-jir-raeI-jen da us-eo-neom-gir-ge

I'm so sorry but I love you da geo-jis-mar

I-ya mor-rass-eo i-je-ya ar-ass-eo ne-ga pir-yo-hae

I'm so sorry but I love you nar-ka-ro-un mar

Hwas-gim-e na-do mo-reu-ge neor tteo-na-bo-naess-ji-man

I'm so sorry but I love you da geo-jis-mar

I'm so sorry but I love you

(I love you more and more)

I'm so sorry but I love you na-reur tteo-na

Cheon-cheon-hi ij-eo-jur-rae

Nae-ga a-pa-har su iss-ge

Oh oh oh oh oh

Mo-deun-ge kkum-i-gir

Oh oh oh

I-geos-bakk-e an-doe-neun na-ra-seo

Drop that thing...

A-jig-do neo-reur mos ij-eo

A-ni pyeong-saeng-eur ga-do

(yeah)

Jug-eo-seo-kka-ji-do

Nae-ga jun sang-cheo a-mur-eoss-neun-ji

Mi-an-hae a-mu-geos-do

Hae-jun-ge eobs-neun na-ra-seo

I'm so sorry but I love you da geo-jis-mar

I-ya mor-rass-eo i-je-ya ar-ass-eo ne-ga pir-yo-hae

I'm so sorry but I love you nar-ka-ro-un mar

Hwas-gim-e na-do mo-reu-ge neor tteo-na-bo-naess-ji-man

I'm so sorry but I love you da geo-jis-mar(but I love you)

I'm so sorry (so sorry) but I love you

(I love you more and more)

I'm so sorry but I love you na-reur tteo-na

Cheon-cheon-hi ij-eo-jur-rae

Nae-ga a-pa-har su iss-ge

Bye bye

2009-10-10T08:19:00.001-07:00

Things to do:
1) Wish Cheryl and Lisa happy birthday(: (again)

To Lisa: Happy Birthday! Although I can't pass you any presents): ,i hope that we'll remain bffs forever!<333

To Cheryl: Happy Birthday too! JYJY for your studies and in RVSE<333

2) Finish math practice papers :p doing this for three days straight is making me sick :p

3) Study for another test.....haiz

Everyone JYJY for last eoy test! then freedom(:

haiz i need to get shakugan no shana songs....where to find huhhuhuhuhuhuh?sigh.

OBSESSED WITH FIREFLIES AND CUTE TOTORO<333

also a message for a friend: cheer up!:)

2009-10-03T01:28:00.000-07:00

sigh.yesterday was like shit.i think i wrote out of point for the bloody hcl compo and it was totally crapped up.bleah.then got some kinda of back pain and it hurt like crazy during the exam and now it still aches.argh.today had hcl tuition and violin as usual.bleah now that i've been reminded of something i just wanna scream kcuf you and everything.shit i'm becoming terribly vulgar and stuff,but that thing is really pissing me off larh and like how to control?? my bottle's full already and i need to scream but i cant now because it's so freaking bleah argh.my life is totally messed up.i miss you like crazy.pleasepleaseplease come visit umph.
elidocorc sreat everywhere

2009-09-27T06:37:00.000-07:00

oh yeah.
Happy Belated Birthday Shiya! JY in concert band and for eoys(:
okay.today is messed up.gahh.i really hope i can do well for eoys.really important exaamintations for me.must must must do well,if not cannot do what i wanna do.urk i still feel sick about that.gahh.short post.
pissed about gorilla.d:

2009-09-25T05:38:00.000-07:00

leg muscles hurt like crazy.today ran for the first time in a long time and did freaking starjumps.but i feel--how to put it--fitter?lol.
today's cid was a bit rushed,and i think my articulation sucked and i was stumbling over words at times,but all in all,we did okay.mr chow liked our presentation(: and he wants us to present at the learning symposium next year(i think) and i was super happy when he said that(: and he asked me "so happy?wow." or something like that.yes! we got the highest mark among all the groups so far,which is pretty good,but the marks still not very good though.i think if we had more time,we would have been able to do a better job.but nvm now.woots so happy(:
had calligraphy for last period.i got an A for the 'li' i wrote last week.yay(: but then today's words were slightly harder,so i kinda messed up d: gahh.
sigh got so much tuition and stuff.eoys coming so,so soon.STOP!

2009-09-21T06:36:00.000-07:00

heys today got major headache larh.and i'm happy to know that person who said mean things on my chatbox isn't someone i know.phew.hopefully?

mugging the whole day.like doing chem and bio papers like mad and then doing theory.gahh theory is the worst.but then there's no more homework to do,=so can relax a bit(:

filled my mum's phone with jap songs,since my lousy temp phone can't play songs and i can't be on my laptop the whole time,so now i can escape a little.played the same,great song for such a long time.love it(:

and there's school tmr.gotta stay back for cid): gonna do the report,which might take a hell lot of time.sigh.and then tmr's lessons are freakishly boring and stuff.plus there's a lang arts test.gahh.i hope i do well.must get really good results.can't let my parents down,especially this year.this year's really important.gahh.

latte(: lurve ya(:

2009-09-19T07:13:00.000-07:00

feeling really down now.it's really making me feel sad and stuff.how is one supposed to react when this happens?cry?i don't know.but it seems there's no one that i can trust.they're all so familiar,yet so distant.maybe i'm separating myself from the others,or maybe it's just that i don't fit in.i've been stuck in this prison for about a year,and i've still guite not adapted to it yet.being alone,no one's gonna accept you.split into pieces,they are.but i don't,or maybe can't,fit inside.hollowness inside myself.it's tiring,to just keep quiet and not express my own feelings.seriously,who are my real friends?i've not met many yet.to break free from all this soon,hopefully.

2009-09-16T05:08:00.000-07:00

had hamper wrapping today.stuffed everything into one big hamper.lol.and lots of scotch tape d:
nothing much today,pretty normal stuff.and there's a bio prac tmr.ahh.i better continue revising d: and eoys coming really soon,so i'll have to cut down on going online and start mugging like crazy.i hope i do really well this time and i'll try to aim for at least 3.6 or 3.7 for gpa.but i think the la oral presentation was pretty bad and might pull down my marks.oh well.gotta mug d:

2009-09-12T20:45:00.000-07:00

not been online for two days=.= major record for me this term.lol.friday had cca and it was so freaking boring.when we went home it was quite funny yet exhausting because we were falling over each other.then on saturday went for violin lesson as usual and all the normal things i do on saturday...except a bit more mugging for maths test on monday.gahh.i hate graphs.
so sleepy now.i really need to wake up with something.hmph.
realised a few days ago that zeming,our sc president,watches anime since his dp is--um i forgot the name of the character--an anime picture.yay this shows that even the sc pres watches anime(:
bleahh going back to studying.
and i think i'm starting to follow others' ways of speaking.this is terrible.
oh well.

2009-09-10T00:37:00.000-07:00

seriously.how hypo can you get??wtf wtf wtf how dare you larh.i really,really hnts.gahh.except that the world is so freaking corrupted.gahh i am freaking pissed now larh.
and yesterday was so uhum...cheer up weikai(:
i am seriously seriously pissed off at someone now.please be more original larh.like don't copy my stuff):
gahh.
oh freaking freaking hell.
do you even understand what that means??for goodness sake's.argh.
how dare you.

Hillsong United- "Take It All"
Searching the world,
The lost will be found.
in freedom we live,
As one we cry out.
You carried the cross,
You died and rose again,
My God,
I'll only ever give my all.

You sent your Son,
From heaven to earth,
Delivered us all,
It's eternally heard,
I Searched for truth
and All I found is you
My God,
I'll only ever give my all.

Chorus:
Jesus, we're living for Your name,
We'll never be ashamed of you
Woah oh oh
Our praise
And all we are today
Take, take, take, it all.
Take, take, take, it all.

You sent your Son,
From heaven to earth,
Delivered us all,
It's eternally heard,
I Searched for truth
and All I found is you
My God,
I'll only ever give my all.

Jesus, we're living for Your name,
We'll never be ashamed of you
Woah oh oh
Our praise
And all we are today
Take, take, take, it all.
Take, take, take, it all.

Jesus, we're living for Your name,
We'll never be ashamed of you
Woah oh oh
Our praise
And all we are today
Take, take, take, it all.
Take, take, take, it all.

Running to the one who heals the blind.
Following the shining light
In Your hands the power to save the world
In my life.

Running to the one who heals the blind.
Following the shining light
In Your hands the power to save the world
In my life.

(Repeat Chorus 2x)
Jesus, we're living for Your name.
We'll never be ashamed of You
(Woah oh oh)

Take, take, take, it all.
Take, take, take, it all.

Jesus, we're living for Your name.
We'll never be ashamed of You
(Woah oh oh)

Take, take, take, it all.
Take, take, take, it all.
Take, take, take, it all.

2009-09-09T04:01:00.000-07:00

heys today i'm feeling tired...like sitting at the table for the whole day...asking people to do the freaking cid survey and doing geo and wrapping presents..oh that was fun though.i spent an awful lot of time trying to wrap yihua's belated birthday present with the fabric d: but i like the fabric(: shimmery(:
and there's still so much of geography left!the questions are simply too many.gahh.and copying and pasting everything for cid is gonna make me even more hunched.sigh.
i don't have much time left to do homework.must chiongg like crazy.i have bio and chem papers undone and i plan to finish geo by today.hopefully.i bet darth vader has finished everything.envy him larh.he's probably enjoying himself watching dgm or hitman now,i guess.gahh.and finding the blasted reservoirs are making my head explode.argh.my timetable's going like this:
thurs:do hmk
fri:cca,do hmk
sat:do hmk,go for tuition and violin lesson
sun:church,do hmk,study for maths test
---end of 'holidays'---
*must remember to bring graph paper,calculator and mathematical set.must not forget or will get killed by mrs choy on monday.gahh.*
oh yeah yihua:
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to yihua*gasp*
happy birthday to you~
let's do it again:
happy birthday to you*wheeze*
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to yihua*gasp*
happy birthday to you...*coughcough*
oh yeah i never copy and paste for this,so it's my heartfelt wishes--haha.yes i know i'm lame no need to tell me that weikai d: haha(:

2009-09-08T06:45:00.001-07:00

heys today i was emoing during the start of the day and then became high at the end.everyone dance!woots!haha.that reminds me.i wanna watch jump!friends going eh.sad:( oh nvm raymond you get jump tickets then everyone go watch:) haha i know very expensive.haha.
oh yeah happy birthday yihua!sorry for acting weird at the starting of the day and everything.don't worry,i'll get you a pressie.hmm.volleyball?or maybe a tigger keychain.haha.*bouncebounce*whee~

Happy Birthday Yihua! (:

JUMP!

2009-09-07T03:46:00.000-07:00

went for the bloodied com lesson just now=.= met sophia at cck mrt station,had lunch and then rushed to school.it's funny how we're always a little late.yep and when we were coming out of commonwealth we saw raymond(: must help me buy ipod or iphone horh.haha i know that's quite impossible but don't get me eeyore even though he's cute because he will end up getting squashed by my brother just like my monkey.gahh.so no soft toys please!haha.ooh maybe an iphone case or smth.haha.jkjk.just get me whatever(:
went home with weikai,jian hao,weili,shiya and liling.i finally realise why weikai is disliked at times.heehee.
went to jurong east popular outlet to find animal farm but couldn't find it--maybe it's because of weikai's bad communication abilities..heehee.
went to bpp after that.guess who i saw there--yolanda and alysia!they haven't changed a bit;they're as nice as ever(:

2009-09-06T05:15:00.000-07:00

heys.not feeling so sad after seeing the messages from people who care about me.thanks guys.really so sweet.

there's a computer lesson tomorrow.for three hours!gahh.and the whole class is gonna meet at jurong mrt station to have lunch at imm before we go.yep.and there's cca on tuesday and friday...i'm not sure if i still look forward to it...

oh yeah i've been wanting to get an ipod for ages...so my mum and i are deciding...hopefully i'll get the iphone threegee(: then i'll have a nice phone too.but i'll have to pay everything myself:P

chrome or touch??

YELLOW BABOON AND GORILLA HAHA

2009-09-05T00:26:00.000-07:00

Owl City- "Fireflies"

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep
Cuz they fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I’d like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that
I’d rather stay awake when I’m asleep
Cuz everything is never as it seems

Cuz I get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they try to teach me how to dance
A foxtrot above my head
A sockhop beneath my bed
The disco ball is just hanging by a thread (thread, thread)

I’d like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that
I’d rather stay awake when I’m asleep
Cuz everything is never
As it seems (when I fall asleep)

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
Cuz I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep?
(Please take me away from here)
When I’m far to tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I’m weird cuz I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell (said farewell)
But I know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
Cuz I saved a few and I keep ‘em in a jar

I’d like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that
I’d rather stay awake when I’m asleep
Cuz everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep)

I’d like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that
I’d rather stay awake when I’m asleep
Cuz everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep)

I’d like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that
I’d rather stay awake when I’m asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

and it's not like anyone would understand me

2009-09-04T07:24:00.000-07:00

had dance assessment at last.great job everyone!let's make it out official class dance(:
had terrible gastric pains today.must be because i skipped breakfast and had peach tea for recess.gahh.and got really stressed up today because of the play and dance,so i think i used up too much energy?ha.
had cca practice today.quite fun though.i wanna learn the new piece asap.it sounds pretty nice(:
went home with se ppl.felt really out of place though.not to mention i almost cried in front of someone on the way home--even though i don't even know why myself.i think i really miss things back then.i still don't feel like i fit in.it's not that ppl aren't nice to me,it's just that things are so much different from the past.and ssometimes i just feel so lonely in school that i want to cry but i can't.and sometimes i feel like screaming at people because they really stress me up and especially that one person who is pulling us down--you know who you are.i don't want to waste time on you already.because it's your own problem,you know?and i seriously can't get bad grades because i need to get out of here.so it's your life,and do whatever you want,but just don't spoil my life.got it??

2009-09-01T01:10:00.000-07:00

yeah went back to mg yesterday.met anna and julia at mac's,had lunch and then went back to mg.zann and i almost got knocked down by a car...
they built this cool playground thing with a sort of rockclimbing wall...and i kept hearing a violin being played...so i went around to check if mr lim was in school...but sadly he wasn't...really miss the ensemble...and for the first and last time in my life,i climbed over the railing with them and took pictures on the science labs' building's rooftop...super cool:) also went to the ensemble room...really nostalgic and i just sat there in the dark and thought about the fun times i had with the ensemble...ahh miss the people like crazy.and the mg canteen food sucks--all the stalls are gone and replaced by new ones...yeah...realised how much mg has changed...and the saddest thing of all was that i didn't get to see my really close friends...really sad:(
oh yeah in rv we had aces day and of course teachers' day...played chapteh and hoolahooped...i really suck at those...and then went for the teachers' day concert--chin and i were singing along to most of the songs:) and the nobody song was really funny--francis and the other guy's dancing was hilarious:)
yeah and today i feel really sucky...and fyi i don't need you to tell me anything mister...i know what to do.yep.

2009-08-30T03:37:00.000-07:00

SNSD- "Gee"

Aha! Listen boy
My first love story
My angel and my girls
My sunshine
Oh! Oh! Let's go!

Neomuneomu meotjyeo nuni nuni busyeo
Sumeul mot swigesseo tteollineun girl
Gee Gee Gee Gee Baby Baby Baby
Gee Gee Gee Gee Baby Baby Baby

Oh neomu bukkeureowo chyeodabol su eobseo
Sarange ppajyeosseo sujubeun girl
Gee Gee Gee Gee Baby Baby Baby
Gee Gee Gee Gee Bab Bab Bab Bab Bab Bab

Eotteoke hajyo (eotteokhajyo)
Tteollineun maeum (tteollineun mameunyo)
(Dugeundugeundugeundugeun) dugeun dugeungeoryeo bamen jamdo mot irujyo

Naneun naneun babongabwayo
Geudae geudaebakke moreuneun babo geuraeyo geudael boneun nan

Neomu banjjak banjjak nunibusyeo No No No No No
Neomu kkamjjak kkamjjak nollan naneun Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
Neomu jjaritjjarit momi tteollyeo Gee Gee Gee Gee Gee
Jeojeun nunbit Oh Yeah joheun hyanggi Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah

Oh neomu neomu yeppeo mami neomu yeppeo
Cheotnune banhaesseo kkok jjibeun girl
Gee Gee Gee Gee Baby Baby Baby
Gee Gee Gee Gee Baby Baby Baby

Neomuna tteugeowo manjil suga eobseo
Sarange tabeoryeo hukkeunhan girl
Gee Gee Gee Gee Baby Baby Baby
Gee Gee Gee Gee Ba Ba Ba Ba Ba Ba

Eojjeomyeon joha (eojjeomyeon johayo)
Sujubeun naneun (sujubeun naneunyo)
(Mollamollamollamolla)
Molla mollahamyeo maeil geudaeman geurijyo

Chinhan chingudeureun malhajyo
Jeongmal neoneun jeongmal motmallyeo
Babo hajiman geudael boneun nan

Neomu banjjak banjjak nunibusyeo No No No No No
Neomu kkamjjak kkamjjak nollan naneun Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
Neomu jjaritjjarit momi tteollyeo Gee Gee Gee Gee Gee
Jeojeun nunbit Oh Yeah joheun hyanggi Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah

Maldo motaenneun geol neomu bukkeureowo haneun nal
Yonggiga eomneungeolkka eotteokhaeya joheungeolkka
Dugeundugeun mam jorimyeo barabogo inneun na

Neomu banjjak banjjak nunibusyeo No No No No No
Neomu kkamjjak kkamjjak nollan naneun Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
Neomu jjaritjjarit momi tteollyeo Gee Gee Gee Gee Gee
Jeojeun nunbit Oh Yeah joheun hyanggi Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah

Neomu banjjak banjjak nunibusyeo No No No No No
Neomu kkamjjak kkamjjak nollan naneun Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
Neomu jjarit jjarit momi tteollyeo Gee Gee Gee Gee Gee
Jeojeun nunbit Oh Yeah joheun hyanggi Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah

2009-08-29T06:12:00.000-07:00

that's it.i'm so freaking tired of acting happy and everything.i am ultra pissed off now.i hate it when i have to act all smiley and cheerful in front of everyone while i'm going crazy inside.i reallyreallyreally have to get out of here,or i'm gonna be stuck here for the rest of my life.argh.everything is going down the drain.gahh.
JUST SHUT UP.

2009-08-27T05:26:00.000-07:00

yeshyeshyesh i love the song!thanks raymond!i owe you one.lalala it is so damn nice haha.when i visit mg,i wanna get megan to play it for me:) looking forward to visiting dear old mg again.
had dance practice earlier.finally got the dance steps done...all we have to do is wait for mr soh's amazed face tomorrow.haha.seriously,it's really good:)i feel kinda guilty now,because i feel like i like dancing more than playing the violin.sorry violin!i won't betray you:(
got teachers' day presents already.i love THAT bouquet.it's so pretty.now i can proudly say that my brother has good taste:)but he stole the cute teddybear cards.grr.
there's cca tmr.crap mini ensemble.i wonder what new songs zeming has prepared.hmm.

2009-08-26T05:42:00.000-07:00

SS501-"Because I'm Stupid"

Nae meoriga neomuna nappaseo
Neo hanapakke nan moreugo
Tareun sarameun pogoittneun neon
Ireon naema-eumdo moreugettji

Neoui harue naran eoptgettji
Tto chu'eokjoch'a eoptgettjiman
Neoman paraman pogoittneun nan
Chakku nunmuli heureugoisseo

Neoui dwaetmoseubeul poneungeotdo nan haengbokiya
Ajik naui ma-eumeul mollado
Kkeutnae seuch'ideusi kado

Niga neomu pogosip'eun nalen
Neomu kyeondigi himdeul naleneun
Neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdola
Honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
Honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!

Neoui harue nan eoptgettji
Tto kieokjoch'a eoptgettjiman
Neoman paraman pogoittneun nan
Honja ch'ueokeul mandeulgo isseo

Naegen sarangiran areumdaun sangch'eokat'a
Neoui yeppeun misoreul poado
Hamkke nan utjido mothae

Niga neomu saenggaknaneun nalen
Kaseum sirigo seulp'eun naleneun
Niga pogosip'ta ipgae maemdola
Honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
Honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!

Bye, bye, never say goodbye
Ireohke chapji mothajiman
I need you amu maldo mothae I want you
Paraedo dasi paraedo

Niga neomu pogosip'eun nalen
Neomu kyeondigi himdeul naleneun
Neoreul saranghanda ipgae maemdola
Honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU

Niga neomu saenggaknaneun nalen
Kaseum sirigo seulp'eun naleneun
Niga pogosip'ta ipgae maemdola
Honja dasi tto CRYING FOR YOU
Honja dasi tto MISSING FOR YOU
Baby! I love you! I'm waiting for you!

2009-08-26T05:29:00.000-07:00

heys today's school was boring..practically falling asleep during champs...moustache guy was so random...kept on looking at my group's spongebob poster...what's the problem man??we like patrick.so there.yeah and i love my group members!they're so nice--except for terence sometimes.hee.yeah and stayed back to do flash animation.happy that i've already finished d&t.miss toh is nice:)
yeah then after that stayed back to practice script for drama.saw the 'prince of tennis' (haha) and then went home with shiya,wanqi and sophia.not really looking forward to tomorrow.drama stuff not really confirmed yet.not much homework today though:)
coming monday,may want to go back to mg with zann to take a look and everything.sigh.i bet it's changed a lot.and i can't even remember the colour of the benches in the canteen.gahh.i really miss mg.and i'm afraid that one day,i'll forget everything about mg--its students,teachers and just the school itself.getting really schoolsick now:(
it's gonna rain.i can smell it already.yay.
does anyone know the name of the cello song played in the "Welcome To Taiwan" advertisement?i heard it being played when i was buying my violin too.it's so nice!i have to get it.so if you know,pleasepleaseplease tell me kay?thanks!:)

2009-08-23T02:57:00.000-07:00

heyys feeling happy today.cut my hair slightly layered,so get ready for a shock tomorrow people.haha.currently addicted to the Can You Feel The Life Tonight song used in the Lion King,because it reminds me of the time the fyso people played it during camp.ahh it was so damn nice.i definitely have to listen to the strings version again.yeah doing bio now:) even though it doesn't have to be handed up tomorrow.bio rocks:)
not looking forward to tuesday.HECTIC!

2009-08-22T03:15:00.000-07:00

heys everyone must watch ff7 movie on channel five tonight okay! ff7 is lovedd:)
yeah school was quite fun yesterday.i love dance:)our group practiced quite hard and i'm glad that mr soh didn't scold us and he even said that the 'lowlowlowlowlowlowlowlow' part was good hoo yeah so happy:) no offense darth vader but you looked like a little boy wearing that cap.haha.oh yeah the shicheng incident was also very funny.i like his group's choice of song though.and the finger thing is so cute:) we were doing that during cca prac.haha.
yeah.cca.i felt kinda lonely,because only xuteng and i were practicing songs together in another room and the rest were in another...yeah and everyone was acting so secretive...xuteng and i feel the same way about our cca,like feeling lonely at times because you don't even understand what they're talking about and stuff...yeah...i felt really left out yesterday...but it's not like anything can be done about that anyway...i don't really feel comfortable in rv anyway...it's like i haven't found my 'place' yet.it's like two different worlds since i came into rv--i just can't seem to 'connect' with my classmates and cca friends.and being in a girls school for six years,it feels really weird studying with boys and stuff.i feel that the boys in my class are sometimes immature--they're always talking about teachers or mj...it's irratating at times and i just want to focus on my studies so that i can have a good job when i get older and stuff...but i'm not even sure if i want to study maths and science or humanities...i'm losing my interest in literature because lang arts lessons are really really boring.i think rv really isn't the right school for me.i badly want to do humanities but i don't really have the chance anymore...i can't go to the jc that i want since i;m already in rv...life sucks to the core.i want to do something,but i've lost my chance already!

top five things that makes me depressed:
[1]kicking and pinching and screaming and yelling and crying until i feel even more hopeless than before
[2]talking to myself until they think i'm mad
[3]rewriting the same words over and over and over and wishing that i'd never done it
[4]trying to understand what he is talking about
[5]hugging someone and knowing that she/he doesn't really care about me and trying to accept it

2009-08-18T05:09:00.000-07:00

ahh today's cca prac was seriously crap.i stayed in the room and played for such a long time but miss cindy still scolded me because of my dumb semi-tone...went on about my f sharp not high enough and my b flat not low enough...still at twenty-five!crap now i'm like the slowest amongst everyone.will have to practice this with miss liyana or i will seriously not be able to get into ensemble next year.and i'm very pissed off with one of the fats--came into the room and irratated me the whole time.i really really hope that i can make it in by next year or i'll have to wait until i'm a year three.gahh.
going for cip tmr...going to be so tiring.i better finish my assignments asap.yeah and the boys in my class are pissing me off more than ever.they keep on going on about ttw and walking around the class and i'm really getting sick of his slapstick jokes.argh.sometimes boys are such a pain.
blogger still can't post photos!*sigh*

2009-08-17T04:40:00.000-07:00

crap there is something wrong with blogger.my dashboard looks seriously weird.and because i couldn't dedicate a post for weikai's marathon yesterday,i shall do now.well done weikai!i want to see your medal.and i hope that your timing chip doesn't screw up.haha.
oh yes had dance practice yesterday.everyone in my class turned up,except for one group.yeah and it was kinda fun and everything,plus jia yan lent me her i-pod.love ya.and i think our dance is okay,and mr soh better accept it or i'll get really pissed off with him.haha jkjk.
saw zeming who kept walking in and out of the hall--he hasn't returned me my one-fifty yet.but i don't want to act petty,so i shall keep quiet until he remembers.or never if he forgets.ahh.
oh yeah and my partner is so great!tyty fangting for today.i really appreciate it.:)
there's se prac tmr,and i'll have to lug my oh-so-heavy-but-so-pretty-violin to school and everything.and then i have cip on wednesday--we're going to east coast park.yay.i hope it isn't too dirty like what weikai said.pleeaase,or we'll have to stay back even longer to clean up the place.
i can't wait for tmr's prac.i shall watch everyone's mad volleyball skillz.haha.
i've been feeling emo these few days.i haven't been sleeping well these days again,partly because of cid and my brother's 'o' levels.i hope he will be able to get into acjc,and then i can borrow his lit notes.haha.i want to do lit,but i like bio too,except for the fact that i can't stand the sight of anything that looks like brains or worms (raymond don't laugh). so i've decided that i wan to be a lawyer,which is the best job you can get for humans course.but maybe i'll become a doctor,but one that has as little to do with brains or worms as possible.i like bio.it's so cool!
yeah and don't get mad with each other kay?we must all be good friends and treat each other nicely.don't leave people out of stuff too;i've experienced that before.it feels really painful if you're left out...

2009-08-11T06:00:00.000-07:00

came back from cca...today's cca was supposed to be cancelled and moved to tomorrow,but i can't make it tomorrow,so stayed back today,*sigh* very boring. played a bit of volleyball-cum-captain's ball with the others,then went back to practice with xuteng and angela.got to know angela a little better too(: got a lot of homework today...and there's a chinese idiom test on thursday...crap.have to stay back tomorrow because of d&t make up lesson anyway...had lang arts comprehension test today.i think i did pretty good.noticed a lot of people in rv don't really care about english--they just want to get average,but they don't want to get higher marks.kinda sad and weird.yeah had hcl compre too,right after recess,so i was a bit sleepy,but i think i did okay for it.i hope:p
i miss you guys.it feels so strange to be here instead of there.

2009-08-10T06:24:00.000-07:00

i had a weird dream last night.really weird.ahh.can't i have a nice dream for once?all of them are creepy.
watched funny barney and teletubbies video on youtube with bro just now.laughed our heads off.a rare,nice moment with him.
crap got three tests tmr.gonna die man.ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-08-08T02:57:00.000-07:00

YES can post at last.doing bio assignment now.maorw angry with the vessel thing.prefer chem:)
finished nightmare of nunnally last night...in midst of reading lelouch...went youtube and found out that he got killed by suzaku in last ep!feeling so sad and he died while everyone was thinking that he was a villian.so sad!
had national day celebrations yesterday.quite boring though.had group photos and liling and me did bunny ears on wu laoshi once in a lifetime chance to do bunny ears on a teacher:) yeah the others went to skypark after school ended but i stayed behind with wanqi to practice her shooting.we calculated that she could do 30 balls in 10 minutes so that would mean 3 balls in 1 minute!yay:)
had tuition in the morning today.was falling asleep because i watched monster last night.very good plot.title:five teaspoonfuls of sugar.weikai must watch.oh yeah don't be emo already kay?i know you've been feeling very emo these few days.lol.and realised that you are very obsessed with your future.lol.look at your facebook page!

2009-08-04T06:53:00.000-07:00

woohoo watching brainiac while doing history homework...lalala. brainiac is stupid but funny at times. yeah and almost had my geog presentation today but the lesson ended right before i was supposed to present, which kinda sucks because this will mean that i will have to present first on thursday.crap.i really really really hate oral presentations.i can't speak in front of too many people.was hyperventillating as usual during class;almost got a heart attack. yeah i had icas maths after school too.the mcq was easy but one of the open-ended questions was hard.gahh.i don't even remember why i signed up to take part in it.i suck at math anyway.
after icas went to se rooms and they had allocated all of us into different tutorial rooms and it got even worse when sophia and me met the others and raymond pointed out to me that my name on the list had been spelt wrongly.ugh.yeah so practiced third fingering(i'm getting better at it:),a bit of saint paul's, a bit of capriol and rv overture.when the others came back from 'volleyballing',played more volleyball in the tutorial room while sitting down.quite fun.the fat kept irritating us with cries of 'miss yu is here' and whoo back to history.must also think of a haiku for tmr's lang arts lesson:)